Heaven is a fresh cut lawn
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Here are the words that sum up my feelings about my life from childhood to my late 30s:
I wish for more.
I wished to be more, do more, have more.
I always felt like I was missing something.
When I was in my teens and 20s, I thought I was missing a better job, a girlfriend or wife, better looks (which would help with the girlfriend or wife), passion/romance/sex (which required the wife that I did not have), and all kinds of other things like a graduate degree, a sporty car, and…wit.
I wished for more God. I wished to feel that I was living the “abundant life” that Jesus talked about (Gospel of John 10:10). I prayed all the time. I read my Bible every day. I spent time with Christians who yearned like I yearned. I went on adventures that I thought would make abundant life spring up within me.
A few times, I thought I got close to what I was trying...